new creation

pride is something that holds on to me (or i have held onto for a long time now) but galatians 5:25-26 says in the message translation, "Since this is the kind of life we have chosen, the life of the Spirit, let us make sure that we do not just hold it as an idea in our heads or a sentiment in our hearts, but work out its implications in every detail of our lives. That means we will not compare ourselves with each other as if one of us were better and another worse. We have far more interesting things to do with our lives. Each of us is an original." recognizing that my life is not my own but is only God's to use for His glory has been huge.

i was a model and actor in my mid to late teen years and as a result i grew in my ability to make myself look better and feel better than everyone else. if there was a way to view myself as better than someone, i did. i was in the top of my class in modeling and was on my way to a career full of selfish, arrogant, conceded thoughts and actions. by the grace of God He had/has captured my heart and over the past couple of years has taught me that i am nothing, my accomplishments mean nothing, my achievements while at the time were huge still mean nothing and have no eternal effect, but God is the one who has granted these things to me and on my own will i would have never accomplished anything but hate, lust, sin, and death. growing up God has allowed things in my life to happen in order to mold me and make me into His creation, He has used the skills and strengths that i have developed growing up to make me into the man i am becoming. patient, loving, humble, a servant, and a hard worker. though these areas are minuscule in comparison to Christ's example, He is working in my heart and is calling me to listen to what He has to say.

a life with Christ is what i desire. He remains faithful even when i am not. my life is nothing apart from Christ, my accomplishments mean nothing apart from Christ, apart from Christ i am nothing, in Christ i am a new creation, something eternal.